I finish praying just before Suhoor, and as I walk down the stairs to prepare for the predawn meal, I feel a wave of sadness rush through me.
It’s coming to an end.
Another year has passed by. Another Ramadan. Just a few more hours and it will be over.
“A limited number of days…” Surah Al Baqarah
This is how Allah describes this month to us; and this verse has never struck me as hard as today. I repeat this verse over and over, every single letter ringing in my ears, and my heart is sobbing.
What a merciful Lord! What a beautiful way of life! The ease He wants for us, and the difficulty we put ourselves through! The love He has for us, the opportunities He gives us, and how we waste them away! And even after our heedlessness and wrong, He blesses us in ways we cannot begin to enumerate!
شَهْرُ رَمَضَانَ الَّذِي أُنزِلَ فِيهِ الْقُرْآنُ هُدًى لِّلنَّاسِ وَبَيِّنَاتٍ مِّنَ الْهُدَىٰ وَالْفُرْقَانِ ۚ فَمَن شَهِدَ مِنكُمُ الشَّهْرَ فَلْيَصُمْهُ ۖ وَمَن كَانَ مَرِيضًا أَوْ عَلَىٰ سَفَرٍ فَعِدَّةٌ مِّنْ أَيَّامٍ أُخَرَ ۗ يُرِيدُ اللَّهُ بِكُمُ الْيُسْرَ وَلَا يُرِيدُ بِكُمُ الْعُسْرَ وَلِتُكْمِلُوا الْعِدَّةَ وَلِتُكَبِّرُوا اللَّهَ عَلَىٰ مَا هَدَاكُمْ وَلَعَلَّكُمْ تَشْكُرُونَ
“The month of Ramadan, in which was revealed the Qur’an, a guidance for the people and clear proofs of guidance and a distinction between right and wrong. So whoever sights the new moon of the month, let him fast it; and whoever is ill or on a journey – then he should make up for an equal number of other days.
Allah intends for you ease and does not intend for you hardship and wants for you to complete the days and to glorify Allah for that to which He has guided you; and perhaps you will be grateful.” (Surah Al Baqarah)
It’s really like bidding farewell to someone beloved you’re not sure you’ll meet again. The same heart wrenching feeling. The same tightness of the throat. The same teary eyes. I haven’t appreciated it enough and it’s gone too soon!
A limited number of days… a limited number of days… a limited number of days…
اللهم اختم لنا شهر رمضان بغفرانك و العتق من نيرانك و أعد علينا رمضان أعواماً عديدة و أزمنة مديدة و نحن في صحة و عافية و حياة سعيدة
– The Sahara Bloggers (Umm Saifullah)