I miss him. I really do.
مُّحَمَّدٌ رَّسُولُ اللَّهِ
“Muhammed (is) the Messenger of Allah…” Surah Al Fath
لَقَدْ جَاءَكُمْ رَسُولٌ مِّنْ أَنفُسِكُمْ عَزِيزٌ عَلَيْهِ مَا عَنِتُّمْ حَرِيصٌ عَلَيْكُم بِالْمُؤْمِنِينَ رَءُوفٌ رَّحِيمٌ
“There has certainly come to you a Messenger from among yourselves. Grievous to him is what you suffer; [he is] concerned over you and to the believers is kind and merciful.” Surah Al Tawbah
مَّا كَانَ مُحَمَّدٌ أَبَا أَحَدٍ مِّن رِّجَالِكُمْ وَلَٰكِن رَّسُولَ اللَّهِ وَخَاتَمَ النَّبِيِّينَ ۗ وَكَانَ اللَّهُ بِكُلِّ شَيْءٍ عَلِيمًا
Muhammad is not the father of [any] one of your men, but [he is] the Messenger of Allah and last of the prophets. And Allah is All-Aware of everything.” Surah Al Ahzab
وَإِنَّكَ لَعَلَىٰ خُلُقٍ عَظِيمٍ
“And verily, you (O Muhammed) are on an exalted standard of character.” Surah Al Qalam
Sometimes during a rough patch, I sit there trying to convince and comfort myself, trying to forgive and forget, trying to find a way out of some particular situation, and my thoughts lead me to him. “If he was still here…”
A’ishah said, “Blessed is He, Whose hearing has encompassed all things. I heard some of what Khuwaylah bint Tha’labah said, while some of it I could not hear although I was in the other room. She was complaining to Allah’s Messenger about her husband. She said, “O Allah’s Messenger! He spent my wealth, exhausted my youth and my womb bore abundantly for him. When I became old, unable to bear children, he pronounced the Dhihar on me! O Allah! I complain to you.’
Khuwaylah bint Tha’labah narrates, “I told him (the Messenger of Allah) what happened and kept complaining to him of the ill treatment I received from ‘Aws. He said, (O Khuwaylah! Your cousin is an old man, so have Taqwa of Allah regarding him.) By Allah! Before I departed, parts of the Qur’an were revealed about me. Allah’s Messenger felt the hardship upon receiving the revelation as he usually did and then became relieved. He said to me, (O Khuwaylah! Allah has revealed something about you and your husband.) He recited to me,
قَدْ سَمِعَ اللَّهُ قَوْلَ الَّتِي تُجَادِلُكَ فِي زَوْجِهَا وَتَشْتَكِي إِلَى اللَّهِ وَاللَّهُ يَسْمَعُ تَحَاوُرَكُمَا ۚ إِنَّ اللَّهَ سَمِيعٌ بَصِيرٌ
“Indeed Allah has heard the statement of her (Khaulah bint Tha’labah) that disputes with you (O Muhammed) concerning her husband (Aws bin As-Samit), and complains to Allah. And Allah hears the argument between you both. Verily, Allah is All-Hearer, All-Seer.” Surah Al Mujadilah
There are countless stories of the Sahabah rushing to him for advice and help. They must have felt so confident in accepting that advice! They must have felt so comforted by those assuring words! Then the tears come and I lament my loss. The Ummah’s loss.
قال أبو بكر بعد وفاة رسول الله لعمر: انطلق بنا إلى أم أيمن نزورها، كما كان رسول الله يزورها. فلما انتهينا إليها بكت، فقالا لها: ما يبكيك؟ ما عند الله خير لرسوله . فقالت: ما أبكي أن لا أكون أعلم أن ما عند الله خير لرسوله ، ولكن أبكي أن الوحي قد انقطع من السماء. فهيجتهما على البكاء، فجعلا يبكيان معها
After the death of Messenger of Allah sallallahu alayhi wa sallam, Abu Bakr said to ‘Umar: “Let us visit Umm Ayman as Messenger of Allah used to visit her”. As we came to her, she wept. They (Abu Bakr and ‘Umar) said to her, “What makes you weep? Do you not know that what Allah has in store for His Messenger is better than this worldly life?”
She said, “I weep not because I am ignorant of the fact that what is in store for the Messenger of Allah is better than this world, but I weep because the Revelation has ceased to come”.This moved both of them to tears and they began to weep along with her.
-The Sahara Bloggers (Umm Saifullah)